Little women

i literally just finished watching little women

it's just so good that i just have to blog about it right away. this is one of the greatest classics of all time. It's a very good movie about family and love. winona ryder is so pretty and young kristen dunts and young christian bale? I mean, come on! hahah
Anyway many emotions is mixed in the story. I don't like the sad part , because it's too sad. i won't tell you what it is i don't want to spoil it for you:p but seriously if you love 90s classic movie , little women is highly recommended. overall this is a great movie with great stories. reminds me how i always wanted to live in that dancing-getting all dress up-going to a ball era :)
anyway, watch it! you won't regret it.

after all , nothing, and i mean NOTHING , nothing beats the classics

loves,
Allegra

In the name of music

Do you ever have a moment where all you want to do is just plug in your headphones and just listen to music, and just shut everything around you down ?  just you and music. full volume. maybe singing your heart out along to the song.

i've seen how music can change life.
it's amazing how some tunes can change people's way of think
how music can unite us.
or how some tunes can work like a time machine. taking you back to some memories
drowning with it.
crying to how you can relate to a song so much.

I love the feeling when watching my favorite musicians live
just a few feets away
singing along , shouting , to my favorite song that before i can only watch on youtube
or just listen to it in full volume in my ipod
 oh! speaking of. the worst thing that i can ever imagine just happened
my favorite band broke up. my chemical romance :(
i know im not that kind of a fan girl anymore. but still , the news broke my heart
i used to be crazy about the band, you know? who wasn't?
 oh well, the world doesnt ends. they will always live inside of me.

I like it when im listening to music , my brain can shut up and it's just me and the music
i like repeating  my favorite part of a song
hell , i like repeating my favorite song over and over
sometimes i wonder if music is all i got
and sure it is the only thing that makes sense to me anymore

music is my passion. and nothing can change that.
i can't imagine how life is before music.
music is a way of life.
it's eternal.
music, i can say
is a magical thing :)

loves,
allegra

Ohana

The bittersweet of having a family in the other side of the world. It's sweet that i can have another home to come home to if i'm going there to visit. The bitter , i miss them more than anything and would give anything to go to duluth and spend time with my family. I love them and i don't know how else i can say i miss them. It's too much to handle. well, they're still my family and will always be a part of me. A missing puzzle pieces.

"ohana means family, and family means no body left behind"

Loves,
Allegra

Cita-cita

"Where do you see yourself in 5 years?"
Pertanyaan yang selalu bikin mikir. Kadang dengan apa yang gue lakukan sekarang ini,suka mikir aja , what am i gonna be in 5 years?
Dari dulu , saya kepengen banget jadi promotor musik , for the sake of my love for concerts (while we're at it , kemaren baru aja dengan random dan sangat dadakan nonton konsernya demi lovato. seneng banget!! she has an amazing voice and such an inspiration :) there's something about post-concert feeling you know ) Karena itu dari smp juga udah tahu bakal masuk jurusan komunikasi karena emang itu yang paling mendekati to get in to the industry
But then everything changes. I went to us and took the psychology subject at school and BAM! just like that my mind is changed. Orang tua - terutama nyokap- seneng seneng aja because she never supported my goal of becoming a music businesswoman. Parents,right? My dad in the other hand always support whatever i want to do as long as i'm being nice and not arrogant to people. Dads,right? :|
Anyway, so here i am , a psychology student. Nyokap berhasil ngebujuk dengan alesan "bagus, lingkungannya luas , bisa kerja jd apa aja" "promotor sekalipun?" i asked , to which she replied "You're still on that? but yes sure" :/
So i always think, so after i finish university , then what?
I always say the future is scary. But it's gonna be interesting at the same time.

So here's what i'm planning to do , if god permit i can pursue it. *Knocks on wood*
finish psychology , find work , hopefully a music business related. And then go abroad for a music business school. semua bilang amin!!
But here's the thing tho. The reason i make a new blog is because lately i have thought that i want people to hear and read. and what's the perfect job for that? a writer
I'm thinking to become a writer. But on the other hand , i'm still on that music promoter crap.
Maybe writing is more of a hobby than taking it seriously. and yet so is psychology.
So , i don't know.
am i really wasting my time here?
Ada bagian di buku perahu kertasnya dee lestari , kugy lagi cerita tentang cita-citanya jadi penulis dongeng , tp dia bilang itu nggak mungkin , nggak ada yang dukung juga. Jadi dia akan cari kerja dulu baru deh jd penulis dongeng. Abis itu , keenan bilang "Jadi , kamu mau jadi orang lain dulu , baru bisa jd diri kamu sendiri?" that's what i love most about the book. How much i can relate to kugy. Somehow i'm in her shoes where nobody understand things we're really passionate about and what we wanna be in life. Love what you do and do what you love my ass. Kalau terpaksa gimana mau jd orang? ah , pusing. kenapa malah jd komplain gini post nya?

Untuk sekarang , saya hanya bisa ngasih semua ke yang maha kuasa. saya yakin dia udah punya plan yang terbaik buat saya. Tentunya dengan usaha dan doa serta bantuannya dan support orang sekitar , mudah-mudahan saya bisa meraih apa yang sudah saya cita-citakan dari dulu. Bilang apa semuaaaa??? amiiiinnnn.....

pesan saya, be anything you wanna be. Dream big. Set high goals for yourself. And then , work hard for it. Don't just say it, work for it. Action speaks louder than words.
Banyak cita-cita saya yang ingin saya wujudkan and things i wanna do before i die. And it's okay to dream as big as it is , and don't listen to what other people think about it. Dukungan orang lain itu penting, tapi kalau orang itu malah menghambat , jangan dengerin orang itu. Listen to your heart , ask for his help , pray hard. Ask for his guidance. He will lead you to the right path.

Also, believe in yourself. Don't f**king give up. That's the worst thing you can do ever.
And who knows what i'm gonna end up being? A psychologist? A promoter like i always wanted? or a writer. I never know. but as long as i can fight , i'm gonna fight for my dreams. without my dreams i'm gonna be lost. A dream is a wish your heart makes.

Loves.
Allegra

The one i can always count on

Do you ever have a person that you know will always be there for you?

i do. her.

Ayik

sahabat-kakak-belahan jiwa kombinasi jd satu 

the person who truly gets me

the person who knows how to be silly and weird

at the same time knows when to be all serious and grown up

we've been trough ups and down together

tumbuh jd wanita dewasa bareng , layaknya kakak ade beneran

sahabat yang siap dengerin semua keluhan

temen berfilosofis - filosofis nggak jelas 

the one i share my inside jokes with

seriously tho , we can just laugh about the things that are not even funny and people will be like 

"what the heck are they laughing about?"

kakak yang siap yg ngasih solusi, bukannya bilang "aku tahu apa yg kamu rasain"

karena emang nggak akan pernah ngerasain exactly apa yg kita rasain kan?

a sister i can always look upto

an inspiration

"you can count on me like 1..2..3 , ill be there

and i know when i need it

i can count on you like 4..3..2

you'll be there..."

Ay , if i havent said it enough
thank you for everything. and i mean everything
but most of all , thanks for letting me be....me
and keeping the little girl inside me alive
im so greatful to have you in my life
and i want you to know that you can always count on me too
i'd die before letting something terrible happen to you
22 power,right?
i love you , sist

Love
Allegra

The simple things

I like it when the simple things makes me happy, you know?

something like, reading a good book
or spending hours looking around book store
finishing a good meal
a good set of workout and a nice glass of iced water after
finding money in your pocket that you didn't know it was there
a nice view of sunset or sunrise plus maybe took a very good pictures of it
or a pouring rain in a hot day
oh! don't you love having a good quality time with yourself? 
i like doing groceries by myself. sometimes that's just what i needed to have an alone time
a text that makes you smile
or being thanked when you actually doing something good to someone
listening to music with your headset and just turning off the rest of the world

But sometimes, we just don't appreciate the simple things in life. We worry to much that we forgot how good life is. We take things for granted and always complaining.
Sometimes all you gotta do is look around you.
Do what you love and love what you do.

Love,
Allegra

The Past

Adult Simba: I know what I have to do. But going back means I'll have to face my past. I've been running from it for so long.
[Rafiki hits Simba on the head with his stick]
Adult Simba: Ow! Jeez, what was that for?
Rafiki: It doesn't matter. It's in the past.
[laughs]
Adult Simba: Yeah, but it still hurts.
Rafiki: Oh yes, the past can hurt. But the from way I see it, you can either run from it, or... learn from it.
[swings his stick again at Simba, who ducks out of the way]
Rafiki: Ha. You see? So what are you going to do?
Adult Simba: First, I'm gonna take your stick.
[Simba snatches Rafiki's stick and throws it and Rafiki runs to grab it]
Rafiki: No, no, no, no, not the stick! Hey, where you going?
Adult Simba: I'm going back!
Rafiki: Good! Go on! Get out of here!

Ahh.Masa lalu. Kadang mau nggak mau kita dihantui masa lalu kita.

I can't seem toe escape my past myself

Masa - masa pahit , dimana yang kalau diingat bisa membangkitkan lagi rasa sakit dari bekas luka yang belum hilang. Kayak kaca yang udh pecah tapi bekas retaknya pasti akan masih terlihat.

Atau masa - masa manis, dimana yang kalau diingat membuat kita senyum-senyum sendiri sampai dikira orang gila dengan orang disekitar.

Funny how our brain works. kita dipaksa ingat hal  - hal yang tidak mau kita ingat

atau mengingat - ingat hal yang seharusnya kita sudah lupa dan tidak perlu diingat - ingat lagi

Pernah nggak sih ngerasa "Yatuhan kasih saya insomnia aja?" 

atau "aku akan memberikan apapun untuk mengulang masa-masa itu"

Kadang hal - hal kecil kayak film , lagu , atau benda bisa mengingatkan kita kesatu peristiwa spesifik.

Kayak mesin waktu , otak kita mengulang peristiwa tersebut.

Akan tetapi , tidak semua yang kita ingat tentang masa lalu itu merugikan

Masa lalu itu bagian dari diri kita

Masa lalu itu yang membuat kita menjadi seperti sekarang ini

Ada yang bilang "pengalaman adalah guru terbaik"

Jadi , jangan menyesali apa yang sudah terjadi

Jangan memperbaiki apa yang terlanjur terjadi

Yang sebaiknya kita lakukan adalah melihat kedepan

Masa depan kita yang cerah

Bermimpi , sampai mimpi itu menakuti kamu sendiri, and fight for it

Hadapi tantangan yang ada dalam meraih mimpi tersebut

Biarkan pengalaman menjadi guru kita supaya kita tidak jatuh ke lubang yang sama

filosofis favorit saya bilang di salah satu bukunya:

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own, and you know what you know. And you are the guy who'll decide where to go." -dr seuss

Stuck in the past only preventing us from getting what we deserve to get. We have a bright future ahead of us. So just suck it up and move on. Sama aja kayak baca buku. Lembarannya masih banyak tapi kalau kita nggak mau membalik lembaran-lemban itu , kita nggak akan tahu apa yang akan terjadi dan endingnya seperti apa, kan?

Live your life to the fullest

because we only have this one chance

why waste it , right?

be the person you want to be , not what you used to be

don't let the past define you

but let it help you choosing the right path

So , which way are you going? are you going to let the past haunt you down? or are you going to learn from it and keep going? :)

love,

allegra

Terrified

Pernah nggak nonton salah satu episode friends dimana Joey sadar akan perasaannya ke rachel itu lebih dari teman? Joey bilang "Do you ever known someone for quiet long , and then suddenly seeing that person differently?" Kemudian , rachel dan joey nonton film cujo. Ketika rachel takut , ia bertanya kepada joey "How can u watch this? aren't you scared?" dan joey jawab "Terrified"

Aku merasakan hal yang sama dengan Joey. Perasaan serba salah , perasaan takut. I don't like feeling like this. Aku juga nggak tau , apa yang aku rasakan sekarang. semuanya musingin. Apa aku yang terlalu arogan untuk membuka hati? atau takut karena sebelumnya setelah pernah dibawa terbang setinggi-tingginya, aku dibiarkan jatuh gitu aja? aku nggak tahu.

Yang aku tahu , aku nyaman kalau ada dia. and you know you're screwed if you're comfortable with someone
Yang aku tahu , aku kangen jika berhari-hari tidak bertemu dia
Yang aku tahu , aku senang mendengarkan celotehannya. tentunya dengan perspective dia yang menurutku luar biasa.
Yang aku tahu , aku ingin melihat dunia dengan matanya. It's like everything he do and say is magic. Sesederhana itu.
Yang aku tahu , aku ingin dia melihatku, untuk sesaat saja , menjadi seorang yang mungkin ia inginkan


Aku nggak tahu apa yang bisa aku lakukan sekarang tentang ini
Yang aku tahu , aku lebih pengen menyimpan ini rapi.
Yang aku tahu, untuk saat ini , segini saja sudah cukup :)

"You set it again, my heart's in motion 

Every word feels like a shooting star

  I'm at the edge of my emotions  

Watching the shadows burning in the dark"

Love,
Allegra

Hellooooooo!

ummm...hello!
it's me , Allegra :)

what else? oh yeah, i decided to make a new blog. it's been ages since i write on a blog and i think it's a good time to make another one.
a LOOOT has been going on in my life lately. not all worth sharing , some are interesting
Like , i was an exchange student in uncle sam's country , united states. i stayed in nebraska and minnesotta. it's really a roller coaster ride experience. but , it's all worth it. and now , at this moment , writing this , i miss my hostfamily so much. my mom sarah , my dad tim , and my bro and sis , anya and leif. not to mention i miss my favorite puppy ever, sagan!! ;) aah how i wish i can turn back time to repeat the experience. i can't wait to go back to duluth and visit everybody.

I am also now a psychology student in bina nusantara university. the major is challenging but it's fun and i like it. college is a whole new world to me. new friends , new people , new enviroment. i like it! a fresh new beggining. i needed a fresh start, you know? who doesn't?

 what else? umm...i still love music , a lot. and now i have a weird obsessesion over tv series. i mean , come on..gossip girl is done? aaargh.still many other tv shows i follow tho. it's crazy. i like waiting for another episode to come on and having mixed feeling about an ending of an episode.
i read, a lot. like i can't get enough. there's something about finishing a good book. but then when i finish it , i'm like.."what the hell am i gonna do with my life", right? especially if the book is like a series. damn.

other than those things , i'm just enjoying life, so , here goes. i'm gonna post some (some crappy , some worth reading) stories that i hope you would enjoy :) not only stories tho , i like to quote movies and books i also like to do some kind of review (i guess?) of movies , books or whatever. so be hold people! haha

wow that's one long introduction.
so, stay tune for my next post

love,
Allegra