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"Where do you see yourself in 5 years?"
Pertanyaan yang selalu bikin mikir. Kadang dengan apa yang gue lakukan sekarang ini,suka mikir aja , what am i gonna be in 5 years?
Dari dulu , saya kepengen banget jadi promotor musik , for the sake of my love for concerts (while we're at it , kemaren baru aja dengan random dan sangat dadakan nonton konsernya demi lovato. seneng banget!! she has an amazing voice and such an inspiration :) there's something about post-concert feeling you know ) Karena itu dari smp juga udah tahu bakal masuk jurusan komunikasi karena emang itu yang paling mendekati to get in to the industry
But then everything changes. I went to us and took the psychology subject at school and BAM! just like that my mind is changed. Orang tua - terutama nyokap- seneng seneng aja because she never supported my goal of becoming a music businesswoman. Parents,right? My dad in the other hand always support whatever i want to do as long as i'm being nice and not arrogant to people. Dads,right? :|
Anyway, so here i am , a psychology student. Nyokap berhasil ngebujuk dengan alesan "bagus, lingkungannya luas , bisa kerja jd apa aja" "promotor sekalipun?" i asked , to which she replied "You're still on that? but yes sure" :/
So i always think, so after i finish university , then what?
I always say the future is scary. But it's gonna be interesting at the same time.

So here's what i'm planning to do , if god permit i can pursue it. *Knocks on wood*
finish psychology , find work , hopefully a music business related. And then go abroad for a music business school. semua bilang amin!!
But here's the thing tho. The reason i make a new blog is because lately i have thought that i want people to hear and read. and what's the perfect job for that? a writer
I'm thinking to become a writer. But on the other hand , i'm still on that music promoter crap.
Maybe writing is more of a hobby than taking it seriously. and yet so is psychology.
So , i don't know.
am i really wasting my time here?
Ada bagian di buku perahu kertasnya dee lestari , kugy lagi cerita tentang cita-citanya jadi penulis dongeng , tp dia bilang itu nggak mungkin , nggak ada yang dukung juga. Jadi dia akan cari kerja dulu baru deh jd penulis dongeng. Abis itu , keenan bilang "Jadi , kamu mau jadi orang lain dulu , baru bisa jd diri kamu sendiri?" that's what i love most about the book. How much i can relate to kugy. Somehow i'm in her shoes where nobody understand things we're really passionate about and what we wanna be in life. Love what you do and do what you love my ass. Kalau terpaksa gimana mau jd orang? ah , pusing. kenapa malah jd komplain gini post nya?

Untuk sekarang , saya hanya bisa ngasih semua ke yang maha kuasa. saya yakin dia udah punya plan yang terbaik buat saya. Tentunya dengan usaha dan doa serta bantuannya dan support orang sekitar , mudah-mudahan saya bisa meraih apa yang sudah saya cita-citakan dari dulu. Bilang apa semuaaaa??? amiiiinnnn.....

pesan saya, be anything you wanna be. Dream big. Set high goals for yourself. And then , work hard for it. Don't just say it, work for it. Action speaks louder than words.
Banyak cita-cita saya yang ingin saya wujudkan and things i wanna do before i die. And it's okay to dream as big as it is , and don't listen to what other people think about it. Dukungan orang lain itu penting, tapi kalau orang itu malah menghambat , jangan dengerin orang itu. Listen to your heart , ask for his help , pray hard. Ask for his guidance. He will lead you to the right path.

Also, believe in yourself. Don't f**king give up. That's the worst thing you can do ever.
And who knows what i'm gonna end up being? A psychologist? A promoter like i always wanted? or a writer. I never know. but as long as i can fight , i'm gonna fight for my dreams. without my dreams i'm gonna be lost. A dream is a wish your heart makes.

Loves.
Allegra